so much for the new guy

ya so after I wrote my last article I just never heard from him again. I'm getting very tired of guys acting like they are all into me and then vanishing. I do have to admit to being a little pathetic and desperate as I e-mail.ed or texted him every couple of days for almost 2 weeks just asking him to talk to me and tell me why. The least someone can do when dumping you is tell you that you are dumped and why. How am I supposed to learn from my mistakes or decide it was him not me, if I never know why they run away?

So after my 2 weeks of trying to get him to talk to me I changed my bio back to single on my date site. I also stepped up things and started making an effort to contact guys and going on the quick messenger to meet guys there too. I've had two dates from that before my computer crashed (still working on it)

With the second guy I went on a date with (G) I broke my rule about no sex on the first date, mainly because my sex drive had hit a up spike and I had had my period all week. By the time I went on the date I was ready to jump anything that moved. I actually preferred the guy i went on a first date with (T). If I do not hear back from G i will not be too heart broken.

I am getting so tired of all this bull shit i just want to find the right person to live my life with.

I did a count of all the guys i have slept with the other day...i lot count when i started trying to count the people in my new Provence. I should go through my blog to find out lol. but he count is at approximately 60 people. Most people would consider that a lot. it doesn't seem like a lot when you are living it though. my count in BC went up so quick for two reasons. One is that i have gone to at least 1 or 2 swinger parties each year that I have been here. had a few more couples as well (that's 2 added at once)
the second reason is that I finally got over the sexual abuse (marital rape) that my sons dad did to me, which for me meant that I do not have to wait months for me to get comfortable enough with most guys to sleep with them. soo I tend to have alot more one night stands then I did before, and I now always have sex on the second date.