why do i do this blog?

So some of you may be wondering why I do this blog.

I Like the idea of being able to look back and have a few laughs at some of my dating adventers. but why publicly? well it helps if I imagin talking to someone. even if I only have 3 followers lol and I feel more pressure to keep it up. I have started and stoped a few diarys. I can just never keep it up.

Also I have noticed how in the closet most swingers are. I think the world needs to know what the swinger lifestyle is really like. But it is hard to do with out compromising peoples privacy. That's why I go out of my way to not have any names, and I even go so far as to only tell you I live somewhere in canada. All though I am sure the 3 followers I have do know me and where I live, if ever more people start to read it, they will not know.

Besides everyone does everything on the net these days.

he's back

So if you can recall back a while ago to the party house, and how S's friend K came by my place a few times after.
Well I hadn't heard from him a about a month or so. Then he called me the other day wanting to take me to the beach. He told me he was single now. I could tell he was definitely into me. and things have been soo slow lately on the dating scene. So I made him a deal. We can date casually and all I expect from him is sex a minimum of once a week and he has to take me to swinger events. He didn't argue. lol

Unfortunately when we did get to playing he started having issues as soon as i put the condom on him. That happens to too many guys! Sometimes I think it is a lot in their heads. Guys have such a negative response to the idea of condoms. What is that?

So I am hoping this all means I will have someone to see on a regular basis this summer. I'm sure the sex will get better, I hope. lol

bored

so i haven't been on a first date since that guy took me to the nude beach. (haven't heard from him since) I have been trying. but the few guys i have talked to on line can't seem to get it together enough to meet me. I am also not getting as many responses on line these days. i think i have gone though most of the swinger guys in the area lol
I hope not.

for the 2 years i have lived in this town i haven't met anyone yet who has gotten past the 3rd date. Is it them? is it me? not sure. I don't think i am asking too much and i give each guy a fare chance. I KNOW there are not many single bi swinger girls out there. The couple i see are always telling me how hard it it to meet one. with that on my side it should be easy.

I think i am a good catch. I'm pretty, nicer then most people i know, i have a good sense of humor, i love to cook, I'm easy to talk to, and i give back rubs.

maybe my faults are to much for some guys. I hate cleaning, i have a mental illness (bi-polar/anxiety disorder) and i tend to cut people off when they are talking. oh and the smoking and pot smoking are a deal breaker for some.

personally i think my good quality's out weigh the bad.

i do know from the past that when i do meet someone that is into me they are very into me. just hope it is mutual lol

so i am just feeling frustrated these days. but maybe a slow down is for the best. i am having a lot of physical illnesses these days. multiple issues all at once. so maybe i should just concentrate on myself this summer and on my son who is coming to visit.

I do get to have a little bit of fun in July. there is going to be a big swingers camping trip and i already have a date (the guy who took me to the first 2 swing party's) at least i know he is reliable and will show if he says he is going to show.