high sex drive

so i almost did a very unsafe bad thing simply because my sex drive has gone up since a meds change. I ended up getting stood up for the GB. and in the end I think it was a good thing too. what was going on in my mind? I don't know. just that I needed something anything to make me feel comfortable in my skin. Changing my meds has thrown me for a loop and it is affecting my decision making abilities. but I did see the shrink, he gave me something to counter act the discomfort I was feeling. I also did a good thing by calling on one of my couples for help, should have done that first. he came over and took care of my sex need. and the new pill took care of the rest. Feeling much calmer today and more in control of myself. Having a high sex drive can be good but when I start making poor decisions it's not so good for me. I suppose it is just that large amounts of anything can be bad, even sex drive.

on a plus note I met a guy tonight on a first date, E, and I think I am going to take him to the swinger party for new years. I like him because he seems like a good guy and he has a bald head. I have a thing for the shaved heads. Also he actually showed up for the date!! lol been stood up too much this last few week that I have been trying to plan more dates. I'm going to take a break from trying to meet new guys till after new years.

pushing my boundries

i sit here in nothing but a very short jean skirt and a very see through while long sleeve shirt. I'm nervous and excited. I am going to my first gang bang. i don't know anyone there. but there will be another girl there. i gave address to a friend for safety.

I don't know what to expect, or why i am doing this. but i want to push myself. i'm pretty tame for a swinger lol and i suspect i am a bit manic as well. my sex drive went waaaay up when i got off my seriquil.

i even jumped a 24 year old the other day, a friend of a friend. and i am still so very horny.

well i will be on later to tell you how it went.