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I suddenly have a few guys who are trying to date me, meet me.

I still have to turn down the tow truck driver, somehow.

there's this really good looking 50 year old, who travels ALLOT and needs someone to take on the trips, and he is a swinger...really hoping we get along when we finally meet.
then there is the guy who found me on facebook, through the swinger couples facebook...he seems nice, he is a swinger so all good there

I've been rather sick for the last week, so waiting till I am better to meet the guys.

but last night one guy talked me into letting him come over while i was sick and looked like shit, he gave me an offer I couldn't refuse. he agreed to bring the ingredients for my cold potion, and to give me a full body massage. he forgot the main ingrediant for the potion but gave me a real good back rub, felt sooo good. I was so sore and tired, so I needed that. but after the back rub we sat on the couch and talked. wasn't long before he was trying to feel me up, I told him to stop a few times but he was being very pushy, i mentioned it to him today, he said he didn't mean to be pushy...but it's one of my rules, don't make me say no more then once. so am not sure, maybe i'll give him one more chance, show him my list of rules. so he knows what they are.

on another note my FWB guy seems to be getting rather jealous when i tell him about dates or other guys. i jet the feeling he is love with me now, so now he is jealous and i am not sure what to do about that. I think we are going to have to have a talk about it, explain to him why I can't fall in love with him.

so I may have allot of fishes now, but I bet by next month, after I have met them for first dates, I will only have one or two. That's how the game is played. if i only date one guy at a time, it would take so much longer, to weed out the bad apples.

I just hope that I can find at least one relationship out of this. so far the 50 year old is in the lead, because he travels and owns his own company, oh and a trip to Vegas is not about gambling, for him, more about the partying..same as me!, i find gambling boring. and when it comes down to it, do I want to lose say $200 playing cards, or, get a lap dance from a beautifully woman,or, go to a swinger party and get laid...um ya I think I'll pass on the gambling. i like that he agrees with me. really hoping I like him.

I'm just not that into you

so how do you tell a guy you are not into them?

the tow truck driver guy: I saw 3 times, had sex with him 2 times...but there is a big problem, he can't make me cum, and he hasn't cum either...the problem is that he barely pushes it in...waaay too gentle and he didn't seem able to go any harder when I requested it. we tried many positions and I even got on top, usually that works because I am in charge, but it still didn't.

is it possible that he is actually too small? but I've been with guys his size before with no problem....I think it is that he just doesn't go hard enough, and when I was on top he wasn't pushing back enough..either way I could not feel much, and I don't think it is going to get any better

so how do I tell him? do I tell him the truth, that he sucks in bed? that's kinda hard on a guys ego, and really it may just be that he is out of practice..been 4 years since he's had sex... he needs some sexersize! strengthening his legs would be key..dry humping a large pillow would do it (making sure he is alone LOL)

maybe I should tell him the truth, might help him in the long run...

some times the truth sucks, but I do hate lieing

Slut or Stud

this is a topic i have to deal with all the time.
guys have open relationships and one night stands and they are called studs for it, they get high fives from there guy friends for "tapping" the latest girl.

women who have open relationships and date multiple people we are called a slut, and looked down on like we are lesser of a person for it. like we should be ashamed of it.

I've been called a slut and a community whore, and even recently a prostitute.

when i tell people i am poly, that i date couples and go to parties, they seem to think i am having sex all the time. I wish! i am lucky to get laid about once every two weeks or so. way less then if i had someone regulare that i was dating.

I guess it may seem like alot of differant people to some, but I am still serching for someone i can spend alot of time with.

the way I look at it, how am i going to find the right partner, if i am not dating all kinds of guys? I don't date them all at the same time though, most guys I only see a couple times or even just once. first date I find out if I like them, if they make it to the second date i want to see if we are sexually compatable, I don't beleve in waiting to find that out, it's impotant to me and i don't put the same signifigance that other people do, sex is just sex, it's fun and no big deal in my books.

I'm starting to understand why most people in the swinging comunity are so in the closet about it... there is such a stigma towards the women, and even the couples. yet there are so many of us who live like this.

it very much bothers me that society says we should be ashamed, why can't we just be ourselves and do what we want? why do people feel the need to look down on others who what to live in a differant way? we are not hurting any body, there is nothing negative about the lifestyle. yet we are made to feel we have to hide what we do.

well I have never been good at lieing. so for me being "in the closet" about my swinger lifestyle is out of the question. my family and friends all know about it..if they have differing opinions about it, well they haven't said anything lol but then i choose to soround myself with posative, open minded people...if my lifestyle bothers someone, well then I'll probably not be friends with them for long.

so people eather love me, or they don't get me and I make then uncomfortable.

so am I a slut or a stud?
I'm just someone looking for love like anyone else, I just go about it differantly